i helped you more than i could handle, but i didn't mind, because we had a best friend contract. i took comfort in having you all to myself. if a boy ever broke my heart, i knew i still had you that would love me un-conditionally. i used to look up too you, you were my idol. years have passed, and we both have changed. we used to be so tight, you still continue to call me your best friend, which sometimes i think is a lie. when you say 'best friends forever' i freak out and run a mile. thing is, you lied to me so much times in the past to the extent, i can't even breathe those words to you anymore. i'm sorry. i can't.